september ceria

1. People speaking on the phone everywhere (almost literally), especially in the bus 2. People saying "excuse me", "Please", "Thanks", "Hi There" 3. People - especially men - opening and holding the door for you 4. The cold breeze 5. Walking in the rain, and suddenly your umbrella turns upside down 6. The cloudy sky (never thought I'd say this) 7. Studying in the library til midnight without anyone to bother you 8. The smell of coffee - first thing in the morning on your way to uni 9. The tourist 10. People speaking in a language you don't know (or know but don't speak) 11. The public transportation, going out at night or even early in the morning - and feeling safe 12. Variety of food - from various places around the world 13. Seeing bits of your homeland - like a becak in a market for example posting this picture, just because the name of the bank

when I finally get home, and know for sure if I finally make it or not through this MA degree, I hope for a little vacation with my mother  :D :D :D

when girl meets boy, and nothing happens for every good (and bad) reason *sigh* and for that, I just want to sing this : Park Hyo Shin (again!) duet with Lyn,  singing a song that gets covered A LOT by Korean singers: Falling Slowly

do the things that you always wanted to without me there to hold you back  don't think, just do more than anything, I want to see you go   take a glorious bite out of the whole world  ---   You Could Be Happy by Snow Patrol

"one thing I still know is that you'r keeping me down" excuse my mellow tone this time. :D

apakah anda pernah menangis? aha! those of you who said no, i wonder what your heart made of.. :D *no offense* tapi siapa sih yang gak pernah nangis dalam hidupnya? bayi lahir aja langsung cenger aliyas nangis kok. well, i just want to write this post for my mom. i just skyped her - the last time i saw her was a month ago when i was about to leave jakarta to dubai. and then this was the first time we skyped and saw each other again (virtually of course). of course, i miss her. we are not only mother and daughter but we are also like sister and best friend. yes, she is my best friend in this world. but i wonder til now. not that i want to see her cry, but i wonder if i ever saw her crying in front of me. no, she never.  saya dan ibu saya memang tak mudah berekspresi, berucap kata sayang setiap hari misalnya. tapi saya yakin ibu saya sayang, dan saya yakin ibu saya tahu saya sangat sayang dg dia, dari perilaku kami masing-masing.  and this i guessed shaped who i am ...

semoga pembaca tahu apa itu tutor friend *ky ada pembacanya aja, sigh* well, in case you don't have any idea, My Tutor Friend is a South Korean film distributed in 2003. it was followed by the sequel in 2007. film pertamanya bercerita ttg seorang mahasiswa berusia 21 tahun yang bekerja sbg tutor/guru privat seorang siswa kelas 3 SMA kaya, yg umurnya sama dg si cewek. sekuelnya bercerita ttg seorang mahasiswi dari Jepang yg dtg ke Korea, yang kemudian les privat bahasa Korea pada seorang mahasiswa - anak si empunya kos-kosan. yes, semacam dibalik gitu dahhh, tadinya tutornya cewek, terus di film kedua tutornya cowok. Menurut saya, kedua film ini seperti film2 korea yg bernafaskan romantic comedy lain: ceritanya klise, happy ending, tapi kemasannya khas korea, bisa ditebak: jalan ceritanya lucu, tapi ga jayus *based on my opinion.. haha.. a scene from My Tutor Friend the Japanese and the Koreanese (koreanese ada ya?) in My Tutor Friend 2 bdw, the guy is cute, isn't h...

B lue v alentine is a romantic drama film about the life of middle-class young married couple, beautifully acted by Ryan Gosling (previously, known for his acting in The Notebook) and Michelle William (she did a lot of works, but the most I remembered is when she played Heath Ledger’s wife in Brokeback Mountain and also in Dawson Creek). This Academy Award’s nominated film shifts back and forth in time: the past and the present of their courtship. Director, Derek Cianfrance, intended this film to began shooting when both actors were still younger, as Williams received the script ever since she was 21. But this intention failed due to financial issues. http://www.boomtron.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/02/blue-valentine-promo-poster.jpg Below is my plot summary, well it contains a spoiler, so in case you are intending to watch the movie, and prefer it best without someone spoiling the story, I guess, you’d better not read further.  The movie opens with a little girl n...

tiga hari ini, saya menghabiskan waktu menonton sebuah drama korea berjudul Still Marry Me (2010). awalnya karena sahabat saya datang ke rumah dan menawari saya untuk mengkopi serial tsb. dari 3 serial yang ada di HD eksternalnya, saya memilih Still Marry Me (opsi lainnya adl: Prince Hours - princess hours versi cowok dan Personal Taste -lee min hoo yang digandrungi oleh cewek2 itu) karena pemeran utamanya adl Kim Bum...... and compared to Lee Min Hoo, saya lebih suka pemeran Xi Men versi korea di Boys Before Flowers ini... hehe... coz he's so cuteee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't help it. you can't resist a guy like this, can you? okay, enough drama about teen idol serial Korea 16 episode ini - yang saya tonton secara strippiing *hei, stripping bukan cuman syuting sinetron ajaa* - berkisah ttg three thirty something women. semuanya memiliki karir cemerlang. kehidupan berkecukupan secara finansial. but, as you may have guessed, they're still single. so, all...

surup sedang tidur di fave spot-nya perkenalkan, dialah surup a.k.a ubul pertama kali saya bertemu dengan dia, adalah suatu senja kira2 setahun yang lalu. ketika saya dan pacar saya janjian dg sahabat sy, untuk mengambil seekor kucing peranakan kucing sahabat saya itu yang persia dg kucing kampung. deg-degan saya deg2an karena untuk pertama kalinya dlm  sejarah hidup saya bisa punya kucing, well tidak benar2 memilikinya krn kucing ini akan jadi kucing cowok saya yang memang sengaja request anak kucing tsb ke sahabat saya. tapi seenggaknya, saya bisa merasakan punya kucing, tanda kutip. sahabat saya sempat bilang, " sori yo, kucinge elik, hehe. soale akeh kampunge. tapi mengko suwe2 nek wis dadi piaraan dewe, mesti sayang wis. aku mbiyen kan ngono." ah, saya ga ambil pusing. meski memang, sedikit meleset dri dugaan ketika pertama kali melihat si kucing dalam keranjang. warnanya hitem kecokelatan, dri jauh nampaknya abu2. dan   dy ngeong2 ...

saya ngantuk sekali hari ini, badly want more caffeine... maka di tengah2 kebosanan dan kengantukan saya itu, saya tidur2 ayam.... saat saya merem, entah mengapa, saya tergerak membuka2 pintu memori. yeah, i am a big fan of jim carrey and kate winslet's movie: eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. i agree that we can erase someone from our mind, esp. if we have bad memories with him/her. but we can not ever erase him/her from our heart. that is true, i admit. however hard i try to forget something, it will just go from my mind or thoughts at a particular moment, but it actually stays deep down inside your heart, as a memory. so then, i never try to do that useless effort. dari banyaknya memori yg sebenarnya ingin saya lupakan, tapi akhirnya cukup saya kubur dalam2, muncul kembali dia. yes, the guy X . sepertinya, sebanyak apapun kontemplasi saya ttg dia dan saya, saya tidak pernah berhasil benar2 ridho dan rela (bukan ridho roma ya) untuk mengeyahkan dia. padahal kadang say...

hence, when negotiation fails, relationships will fall apart. and when one party refuses to negotiate anymore, relationships will start to break apart. "i never thought your love will change so fast, i thought we built our love so strong to last, driving me crazy, am I losing you?" (Boyzone - where did you go?)

I say I love you You say that's kind You don't wanna get too close You loved me crazy I lost my mind  Listen... You're everything I never wanted And all the things I didn't need This ain't who I wanna be  You don't have to stay forever I'll take passion over pride Full moon, high tide Let's make it a long goodbye Tomorrow we'll pick up the pieces Try to mend our broken lives Soft kiss, sweet lies Let's make it a long goodbye Yeah... I cried in silence I lived through you I've given everything away And maybe I can learn to fall For someone who can give me all The things I"m not afraid to lose Whenever you see lonely faces that's where I'll be don't cry for me, no no no no don't cry for me, don't cry for me yeah yeahhhh Hey, don't cry for me, no no no I'm gonna be okay

Salahkah diriku ini Pabila rasa ini ada di hatiku Kau memang teman sahabatku Kau memang teman baikku Dan aku jatuh cinta padamu Sakiti hatiku Bila aku melihat Kau tak tersenyum karena Cintamu sedang terluka Dia menyakitimu Dan aku sakit karenanya Kau ingin cinta sejati Kau ingin ketulusan hati Reff : Biarkan kunyatakan Aku cintaimu Biarkan aku datang Di dalam hatimu Biarkan ku akhiri Rasa sakit di hatimu Karena aku sahabatmu Aku yang dengan tulus mencintaimu (Cindy) today, i went to uni and found out the answer of my questions two nights before. sadly, i couldn't go to buka bersama with my junior high school friends. well, that's so sad, especially when almost every year, i helped to organize our gatherings. but, that's alright. i hope there would be another year and more to come so we can have more outing together. one of my best friend sent me sms, which i couldn't understand about the our male friend who spoiled the nite (s...