september ceria

purple thing in Centennial Park (a park near where I live) I'm starting a new journey! After about 2.5 years leaving school, I am finally starting my PhD! What a dream comes true! Hahaha... Really? Is it really a dream comes true? Yes , I've been wanting to do a phd as soon as I submitted my master dissertation. And I've been seriously sending application for scholarship for a year: to the most desired one KGSP (to go to Korea!), Monbusho (to go to Japan), and LPDP. The first two is really an obsession of mine. I doubt I will get much - academically speaking, since anthropology is not that well-established in the said countries), but I always wanted to do research and live there. So yeah... Not really , because I was actually unsure about the choice of university that I finally landed in. I applied to two other universities (Heidelberg Uni - Germany and Uni of Edinburgh) before, and made contacts with a potential research supervisor at ANU (that I know from re...

All I want to hear is ... The sound of DUG Followed by your miauw Sometimes it sounds weak or stable At other times it sounds as if you haven't eaten for weeks All I want to see is ... Your figure near my bathroom Drinking as if there's no tomorrow With that particular sound Of the encounter between your tongue and the water All I want to touch is ... Your soft fur When you're sleeping below the towel stand Or when you hide underneath my bed when there's a lightning or somebody you don't know All I ever want now is you to go back home I have prepared your towel so you can shower after your long adventure I have bought your favorite flavor of wet food - I've stored them in the fridge. And no, I won't mind just whatever amount you're eating so don't worry I have prepared your water just outside my bathroom so you can drink to your heart content This house is ready for you so you can sleep wherever you want to All I want, now, rea...

1. People speaking on the phone everywhere (almost literally), especially in the bus 2. People saying "excuse me", "Please", "Thanks", "Hi There" 3. People - especially men - opening and holding the door for you 4. The cold breeze 5. Walking in the rain, and suddenly your umbrella turns upside down 6. The cloudy sky (never thought I'd say this) 7. Studying in the library til midnight without anyone to bother you 8. The smell of coffee - first thing in the morning on your way to uni 9. The tourist 10. People speaking in a language you don't know (or know but don't speak) 11. The public transportation, going out at night or even early in the morning - and feeling safe 12. Variety of food - from various places around the world 13. Seeing bits of your homeland - like a becak in a market for example posting this picture, just because the name of the bank

when you have less than 48 hours left in a city where (almost) everyone feel welcomed. it's kinda sad, really. had the last farewell dinner with everyone. came home for another dinner for another party (it's a birthday party actually). it feels weird, knowing you may not be able to come back (soon -- well, I hope I can come back for whatever purpose later in the future, but it may not be for the same purpose). this past couple years has been terrific. now that I think about it, seven years ago, I never thought I could go this far (literally and figuratively). there are some things I regret for not doing, but I believe if I work harder in the future, I will be able to do more things that I wasn't able to do this past couple years. I must thank a lot of people for helping me to go this far. I find it funny that it all started with SMS. perhaps, in the future, I must send more SMS to more people. LOL. ah well, it's Christmas eve, everyone... merry Christmas!

people who have long known me must understand that I was a big fan of Boyzone - my first crush at that time was Ronan Keating which then was followed by the rest of the members; except for Mikey. Hmm I don't know why but I was never really that into him. Well, I still am a fan of Boyzone - though not to the extent I went to when I was much younger. I did shed my tear when I heard Stephen died 3 years ago, heck, who didn't? I watched their documentary that year following Stephen's death and bawled my eyes out. They were gonna launch a new album - a reunion you might say. He was the happiest and most enthusiastic about it - says the rest of the members. But, in the process of album production, he passed away. His last recorded songs include this - the music video itself is tearjerker. But, I did not follow Ronan's venture in his solo career. I did, when he launched his first solo album. I bought a cassette, but I also bought Stephen's solo album. However, I am ...

you know you miss your home when you start browsing Indonesian food on tumblr almost non stop every day when you get the chance. finally, the feeling after 14 months. just across my bedroom door at home

another year in a land - not called home - celebrating eid mubarak, for the fourth time in a row. 

sometimes several hurricanes happen within a period of time - like this. but you gotta be strong! :)

the most dreadful thing happen to me -- there's always the first time you experience thing, and it's the first time in my life experiencing this. don't quite know what to do. my plan is slowly coming nearer to the edge. the future seems darker than usual. hopeful faces turn to shocked ones. only myself to blame this time, yet it's hard to change habits I've grown accustomed to. it's indeed a hurricane...

ah, i just realized. been here for a while, but i hardly wrote about my impression of london. it's summer already. weather is nice, though sometimes it's terribly hot in my attic room.  about a month ago, I eventually made up my mind to reorganize my room. as a result, now my study desk faces the window directly to allow sunlight; hence hopefully prevent me from laziness view from my window, yeah it's a sunny day when I first wrote this draft, that was my first impression on London's summer. but I must take it back as summer days are often not so different than any other days in London, be it winter, spring or fall. like today, it's now 13 degree Celsius - and don't ask me about rain or wind coz it happens almost every day. I just went back from uni.   one day, I came back from school and got on a bus. I sat with an African lady who talked on the phone since I got on, up until she got off - which took about 40 minute. but that's not an un...

after years of good experience with my possession, this past couple of months have been a real 'hell' for me. first, I lost a tripod in Jane Austen's city, Bath. second (today), I lost my damn cell phone in a market (and fortunately, it was the android one - which I only got like in a what? a year or so). this is just awesome! yet, a friend of mine said I was way too 'cool' for someone who just lost a phone, to which another responded, "she didn't even react when she lost a boyfriend, what-more a phone!". haha, I guess she's right.  well, I guess, goodbye! :'(

oh, crap! i can't write a single word for my essay!! argh!

this. is. such. a. sh*tty. thing. to. experience.

it's a bit painful for me to post this, but, just for fun I decided to post these three pictures.  early Oct 2011 late Dec 2011 NOW!! can anyone tell the difference? ;p on a side note, actually I could tell that I've began gaining weight during this past few months, especially after my life has been turned *kind of* upside down by the increasing difficulty of sleeping. When I do my activity at night, I still crave for snacks. Hereby, this is the result. I tried to jog, but since it was such a long time I didn't do it, it killed my leg. So, I kinda gave up. But, I think, by looking at this, I should definitely begin to jog again. so, let's live healthy life!  ( self-hypnotising, though I can't really see myself having the normal sleep hour, especially assignment, essay and dissertation are all waiting )

argh! i've been feeling so stupid lately, i can't think straight!  by the way, i found a nice cover of Falling Slowly (Glen Hasard) by a Korean male vocalist, Park Hyo Shin. his voice soothes me (or actually makes me feel stupider?) .. haha

do the things that you always wanted to without me there to hold you back  don't think, just do more than anything, I want to see you go   take a glorious bite out of the whole world  ---   You Could Be Happy by Snow Patrol

initially, I didn't mean to make a mellow post. but I guess, my mind and heart keep playing tricks on me... Haha... here's another mellow thing - listen to lyrics, and you'll know what I mean. a great song from snow patrol - "This isn't everything you are"

lapor! hari ini capek tk tinggi! sangat tidak disarankan dalam dua hari berturut-turut wawancara enam orang berturut-turut tanpa jeda, aplgi dg topik yang sama. hahaha. *ya ampun baru sadar di draft ada tulisan ini, tertanggal 12 Agustus 2011, baiklah akan sy selesaikan* tiga hari itu, saya 'berdinas' ke semarang. nerusin proyek penelitian yg sempat terhenti lama karena belum juga selesai mempublish report terjemahan ke bhs indonesia dari hasil penelitian sebelumnya. *riset dg tropmed, fk. sendirian, saya pun mendatangi sebuah kantor penyedia layanan pengurangan dampak buruk napza di kota itu. sy pernah mendatangi tmpt itu sebelumnya, 1 thun yang lalu kurang lebih. wktu itu sy dan partner kerja saya sempat mewawancarai slh satu petugas lapangan yg masih aktif menggunakan napza demi riset kami. that time, I said to myself, he was something! he was young, he was smart,  plus, he was good looking.  only he used drugs.  hari pertama sampai di sana, mbak2 yang re...

wow, apparently, I am not that diligent as i thought I was. hahha. perhaps, i was a bit too excited a month ago, posting two different posts within a week time. now, with the amount of readings I have to cope, the desire to write a post in this blog seems to disappear. *sigh* yes, tiba2 saya merasa rindu dan kangen *podo wae* bekerja. bekerja dalam artian melakukan sesuatu dan mendapatkan uang. tepatnya lagi, kangen laura. hihi *padahal sebelum kuliah ini, sy baru bekerja full time di sana sejak Mei tahun ini - artinya baru 4 bulan saja sy kerja di sana. sebenernya sih karena akhir2 ini sy susah banget fokus untuk kuliah. bahkan reading week ini yang seharusnya sy gunakan untuk berkonsentrasi mengejar ketertinggalan bacaan, malah sy pake untuk nyelesein kerjaan yg lalu, yakni menulis dg kaitan riset setahun yang lalu (di tropmed). my ex office desk @ laura sebenarnya yang bikin sy rindu karena sy sedang mengaktivasi kemba...

apakah anda pernah menangis? aha! those of you who said no, i wonder what your heart made of.. :D *no offense* tapi siapa sih yang gak pernah nangis dalam hidupnya? bayi lahir aja langsung cenger aliyas nangis kok. well, i just want to write this post for my mom. i just skyped her - the last time i saw her was a month ago when i was about to leave jakarta to dubai. and then this was the first time we skyped and saw each other again (virtually of course). of course, i miss her. we are not only mother and daughter but we are also like sister and best friend. yes, she is my best friend in this world. but i wonder til now. not that i want to see her cry, but i wonder if i ever saw her crying in front of me. no, she never.  saya dan ibu saya memang tak mudah berekspresi, berucap kata sayang setiap hari misalnya. tapi saya yakin ibu saya sayang, dan saya yakin ibu saya tahu saya sangat sayang dg dia, dari perilaku kami masing-masing.  and this i guessed shaped who i am ...