september ceria

when you have less than 48 hours left in a city where (almost) everyone feel welcomed. it's kinda sad, really. had the last farewell dinner with everyone. came home for another dinner for another party (it's a birthday party actually). it feels weird, knowing you may not be able to come back (soon -- well, I hope I can come back for whatever purpose later in the future, but it may not be for the same purpose). this past couple years has been terrific. now that I think about it, seven years ago, I never thought I could go this far (literally and figuratively). there are some things I regret for not doing, but I believe if I work harder in the future, I will be able to do more things that I wasn't able to do this past couple years. I must thank a lot of people for helping me to go this far. I find it funny that it all started with SMS. perhaps, in the future, I must send more SMS to more people. LOL. ah well, it's Christmas eve, everyone... merry Christmas!

when you finally are going to go home (maybe for good), but the tube service may be disrupted because of a strike (that's the cheapest way to go to heathrow) and the express train to airport won't be working either (the most convenient transport to airport). am I supposed to pay for a taxi? or to sit on the bus for more than 2 hours - while changing every 20 minutes or so? damn it.

when you find out the very uncertain nature of your future AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

when you find it hard to go back home - to reality very old song from Kla Project, about a hometown as far as 18 hours or so by plane from where I am now PS: again, why is it so hard to begin to write an academic paper?

"How much longer do I have to cry until you'll love me properly" *sob*

people who have long known me must understand that I was a big fan of Boyzone - my first crush at that time was Ronan Keating which then was followed by the rest of the members; except for Mikey. Hmm I don't know why but I was never really that into him. Well, I still am a fan of Boyzone - though not to the extent I went to when I was much younger. I did shed my tear when I heard Stephen died 3 years ago, heck, who didn't? I watched their documentary that year following Stephen's death and bawled my eyes out. They were gonna launch a new album - a reunion you might say. He was the happiest and most enthusiastic about it - says the rest of the members. But, in the process of album production, he passed away. His last recorded songs include this - the music video itself is tearjerker. But, I did not follow Ronan's venture in his solo career. I did, when he launched his first solo album. I bought a cassette, but I also bought Stephen's solo album. However, I am

Do you have a song or two reminding you of your youth? well, for me, this is one of them. and just because of the mellow tone fits this cloudy day. and perhaps because I miss you?